My Goals.

For the next 6-7 months, I am going to try to accomplish goals. I'm not going to push to lose weight, but rather push to be incredibly healthy.

If you know me, you know that when I work out, I work out hard. I make sure that no matter what I'm doing, I end up sweating [a lot] and my heart is pounding and my pulse is really going that I can even feel it in my face. So for the next 6-7 months, I hope to achieve:
1. Work my way up to lifting at least 5-10 more pounds than I do now.
2. Do more leg strength training.
3. Walk three days a week.
4. Run three days a week.
5. Try to stay on the new "diet" as much as possible. An all organic "diet" is seriously sounding better and better as I get closer to being back at home.
6. Get back to having my protein smoothies. I miss them!! They're so delish!!


Along with working out and eating right, I have some other goals for myself. These goals are:
1. Take better care of my facial skin. [I cleanse twice a day, but don't always tone and moisturize. So I am going to work on toning and moisturizing every time I wash my face.]
2. Moisturize all of my skin at least once a day. [I'm bad at not always doing this.]
3. Take better care of my nails. [I used to give myself manicures at least twice a month, and I'd like to get back into doing that.]
4. Keep a "fresh face". [I think it's best to not spackle makeup on one's face, but to have a more "fresh" look. I only wear a lot of eye makeup on occassion - just to "play up" my eyes.]


There are a few things that I am considering for when I go back to Ohio during the deployment. My younger sister and I have discussed maybe taking a tumbling class just for the hell of it. I haven't done a backhandspring since May 2005, so it'd be hilarious to see me try and tumble again. My sister and I just want to take a tumbling class though because it'd be an excellent workout for us!! You have to use so many muscles to tumble, and you really do gain a lot of upper body strength tumbling. I'm not going to try to get back all of the tumbling skills I once had, but it'd be nice to see if I can get back my backhandspring. LOL. [Please, if I got all of my tumbling skills back, I'd be better than a lot of college cheerleaders!! No joke!!] I'm even debating about whether or not to put Michael and Brayden into a tumbling class for little kids when we go home. Both of them love to flip around - especially Brayden!!

Another thing I am hoping to do when I'm back in Ohio is to swim 2-4 days a week. And I don't just mean get in the pool, play around for a little bit, and that's it. Of course I'll do that, but what I really want to do is get in the pool and actually swim some laps. You know, really use my arms and legs like a true swimmer and get my heart pumping!! That's what I want to do!! It'd be another great workout for me.

I'd also like to get back into dance when I'm home, but I don't know if that'll happen. I wouldn't do ballet, jazz, or anything like that. I'd rather get into hip hop classes. I used to be a hip hop dancer back in high school, and I'd like to get back into it. It's so much fun and you get a great workout from it!! Some people don't think that you need any strength at all for hip hop dancing, but they're so wrong!! You really need to have strength to do a lot of the moves!! But if I can't take a hip hop dance class when I'm home, there's always the alternative...dancing around the house. It's not as good as taking a class, but I guess it works. HA.

So there are my goals for the next 6-7 months. I plan to accomplish all of my goals, and hopefully even pass them!! I'm totally committed to this, just like I have been committed to many healthy choices I've made within the last year.

PS - Is there a way to block someone from reading my blog that doesn't "follow" my blog?! I have recently found out that someone has taken things I've written about on here, went to their own blog, and "bashed" me and the things I have chosen for my life and such. How incredibly lame is that?! I just don't want to make my blog private since a lot of people have been having problems with that lately. So I would like to block that user, if at all possible, from reading my blog...if there even is a way. If there isn't, maybe I will just have to try and make my blog private.

One Year Ago.

A little over a year ago, I decided it was time to really change things in my life. One year ago was the last day of a life that I no longer live - and I couldn't be any happier that that life doesn't exist!!

On April 12, 2008, I had my last drink of pop and my last fast food meal. I didn't even want to have that stuff that day because a few days beforehand, I wanted to no longer have those things exist in my life - I had no choice, though, since we were at someone else's house and that's what we had to eat there. But I haven't even had a sip of pop since that day, and I haven't even licked french fry grease off my fingers after tearing fries into smaller pieces for my kids. I just don't allow those things anymore.

Looking back, I always thought that making it one week would be such a bitch and I didn't know if I would even make it passed two weeks without fast food and pop. But here I am, one year later, and I've gone fast food and pop free!! I never understood how people could do this, but once I started doing it, I realized that it's for the best and it only gets easier as each day goes by. I'm 100% happy with the decision I made, and the only regret I have is that I didn't start living without fast food and pop sooner - but at least I started at some point, and not a point where it was too late.

In the last year, I've lost 20-30 pounds. All of the weight I lost came off in just 2-3 months. I haven't lost another pound since the end of summer, which blows balls, but at least I actually lost some weight. It's just irritating though because no matter how much I work out, how well I eat, etc., I just can't lose another pound - which is why in June, I am going to start a "diet" that is actually more strict than a vegan "diet". People may think it's insane, but it's actually an incredibly healthy "diet". I'd say that it's one million times better than a diet that restricts carbs. The "diet" that I will be starting has done wonders for some of my family members, and I am ready to give it a try and see what it does for me. I have a lot of faith and hope that it'll work for me. It might actually just be what helps me get to where I need to be. [And when I say "need to be", I really do mean need to be!! Even with all of the weight I've lost, I'm still far from being totally healthy.]

When the boys and I head back to Ohio toward the end of May, I am going to make it a goal to walk at least 3 days a week and run 3 days a week. It'll be so much easier for me to run while I'm home because I can just leave the boys with my mom. [Seriously, I am just way too short to use the jogging stroller. I can't push that damn thing properly. If I were maybe 3 inches taller, I'd be fine.] I am also going to do some strength training 3-4 days a week. Working out, along with the strict diet, I think that I'll be able to lose the weight I want to lose in time for me to get plastic surgery. I hope that I can be to where at least I feel I can be comfortable.

Well, here's to the past year of success, and to another year of kicking my own ass and hopefully reaching more goals that I'll set for myself!!

"Get your fat ass up and do something...anything!!!!"

Those are the words I told myself today. And I did something - I worked out!! It's been a while since I've actually worked out, and not "relied" on my constant moving around the house while getting things done. It was nice to work out again. I didn't do a whole lot, but I did enough to get my heart rate up, sweat a little bit, and feel the burn!! I worked out my legs and went on the bike for a total of 30 minutes. I am going to try to at least work out a little bit every day, even if it's for only 30 minutes. I need to at least do something every day. I hate that I haven't worked out in what feels like forever!! I feel so gross and FATastic!! YUCK!

Also, I need to get back into eating healthy. This constantly eating pizza rolls, chicken nuggets, PB&J nonsense has to end!! It's just that I'm so busy with getting things packed and organized for when we move that I just want to eat something that's quick and easy to make. I have lots of healthy foods in the house, yet never make any of it. I need to step it up already!! But I do know that when the boys and I move back to Ohio, I am going to start this "diet" that my mom's on. She's been on it for a month or so now, and she's lost a lot of weight, inches off her body, and she feels so much better about herself. Plus, she's not even working out!! So how awesome is that?! My Aunt Debbie started the family on this "diet", and everyone that's been doing it has been losing a lot of weight and they all say that they feel great!! So I'm going to be the next one to jump on the bandwagon and do that, too!!

The one year mark is fast approaching. I'm just days away from having gone ONE YEAR without fast food and pop!! HOLY FUCK!! I can't believe I have gone one whole year without that stuff!! I thought it was going to be hell on earth going just one month without that garbage, but after a while, I just never craved it and felt so much better about myself. But April 12th...man...the last day I had fast food and pop!! Can you believe it?!?! I actually think I might cry because I have accomplished many more months than I ever expected!!

It'll be a while, I'm sure.

Well, it has been some time since I have worked out. I hate it. But I just have so much to do around here that when I do have a little bit of time to myself, I just want to sit around and relax. I can't wait, though, till things are settled down some and I can get back into the "swing of things".

I guess I shouldn't complain much though because I am still lifting things and moving around a lot. Plus, I haven't gained any weight, so I'm not too pissed. But I do look forward to the day where I am back on track and working out 5-6 days a week.

Since I haven't been working out much in a while, I haven't been posting on here. However, I do have another blog on here that I started a short while ago. It has to deal with art/photography. I have applied to The Art Institute's photography program, and with my love of photography [art in general, really], I figured I should just have my very own "random" photography blog. So check it out if you'd like. Just go HERE.

That's all I have for now. I have some packing and stuff I'd like to do around here.